February 2012
6 posts
All in all I’m really proud of myself for how well I’m handling everything. I make it through whole days sometimes without crying. I’ve figured out a way to go back to school in september. I can actually get out of bed every day, when I thought I’d be crumpled on the floor. I guess the boys have made me be strong in ways I didn’t think I’d be able to be.
But...
Valentines day seems especially cruel this year
Ps
To the people who wrote me messages- a million and five thank yous. I plan on responding when the dust has settled, but really can’t tell you how appreciated they were. I have never really had people reach out in this tumblr land, and it couldn’t have come at a better time
I know I haven’t written a proper post about what’s going on. Bottom line is that Jamie will be out by tomorrow. We are very much civil, but I am crushed. How do I do this? How do I see this person for the rest of my life? How do I see him dating other people? How am I, a 30 year old single mother of two, ever going to find somebody myself?
“Losing love is like a window in your heart- everybody sees your blown apart....”
– Paul Simon
January 2012
9 posts
Jamie is moving out. Please send all encouragement/ positive vibes my way. I’m devastated, terrified, and falling apart.
“Don’t cook. Don’t clean. No man will ever make love to a woman because she waxed...”
– Joan Rivers (via interiors-porn)
So it has come to my attention that I suck at blogging. Seriously. My solution? I’m gonna get my butt in gear. I follow a lot more twin moms now, and that was initially the point of starting a tumblr- to exchange stories/ get advice from other twin moms. However I have realized that i dont talk AT ALL about the ins and outs of raising two boys at the same time. That’s going to change....
So so so so so so tired
December 2011
7 posts
The amount of ladies on here pregnant again is unbelievable!! I hope it’s not contagious.
Any of you ladies use nuvaring? Thoughts?
November 2011
4 posts
10 things the iPhone Siri will help you get... →
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Ask the Siri, the new iPhone 4 assistant, where to get an abortion, and, if you happen to be in Washington, D.C., she won’t direct you to the Planned Parenthood on 16th St, NW. Instead, she’ll suggest you pay a visit to the 1st Choice Women’s Health Center, an anti-abortion Crisis Pregnancy Center (CPC) in Landsdowne, Virginia, or Human Life Services, a CPC in York,...
Tips on having a Christmas tree with two 14 month olds who get into everything?
Catch up
1. I am thankful for the days the boys decide to sleep till 8:30.
2. I am thankful for delicious meals cooked by other people.
3. I am thankful for old dear friends finding me on Facebook. Best surprises ever.
October 2011
4 posts
Duh
There are surely things I should be doing besides eating every time I’m bored or lonely. It’s not a good look
I think I should follow in the wise footsteps of George Costaza and start doing the exact opposite of what my gut instinct tells me to do. Anyone?
September 2011
3 posts
help
im unraveling. today is the boys first birthday. i should be so happy. instead, jamie and i had a huge fight and he basically told me how unhappy he is. that i am no longer the girl he was in love with. that i mope around the house all the time and it isn’t attractive. i feel crushed. this has been such a hard year, full of so many transitions, and i truly feel like i have been...
August 2011
1 post
a rare personal post
as always, i will start by saying that although the boys were not planned, i never regret the fact that i had them. they hands down give my life meaning each and every day. that being said… .
i miss my boyfriend. yes, technically he is here, but i miss the way we were before we had children. don’t get me wrong, seeing him be a father to our children has made me love him in...
July 2011
4 posts
Just like his mamma
i made noodles with broccoli tonight for dinner. Logan picked out all the broccoli and ate it first. i like your style, kid.
Random Musings Wednesday
i honestly don’t know how you ladies keep breastfeeding once they get teeth. they both have the sharpest teeth in the world. they are like little crocodiles. i cannot imagine if they were biting my nipples. kudos to you all.
i need to stop stalking my dashboard and actually post more. i just am SO LAZY, like seriously.
i have started trying to exercise in the morning. i was doing...
I can’t believe the boys slept from 7:30-7:30 last night without waking up at all, given how there were fireworks going off ALL NIGHT LONG. Hallelujah.
June 2011
6 posts
post in which i feel sorry for myself. . .
i am literally just having one of those days. i am just so frustrated about everything. the boys have decided, simultaneously, that napping is for losers. they literally refuse to nap. fast forward to the end of the day when they are extremely cranky and tired and both are whining and want to be held, and it’s enough to make me pull my hair out. and THEN they are OVER tired, so they...
I haven't cried this hard in a while
so, there was a moment i have been scared of since i first found out i was pregnant with twins, the moment where both boys desperately need me at the same time and i just can’t be there for both. don’t get me wrong, they have definitely cried at the same time, and been fussy at the same time, and held their hands out for me to hold them at the same time. my heart hurts each and every...
Jamie’s sister wanted to take the boys for a night, so we let her. I am laying down at 11:30. Lame?????
May 2011
10 posts
Logan, at 8 months, has his sixth tooth coming in. Lucas still only has two.
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OH MY GOODNESSSSS! Your babies are adorable! I'm looking forward to seeing them on my dash! As for tips... it's hard -really hard- to make time to get to a gym, so I just don't even kid myself by getting a membership. I stopped buying junkfood... if it's not at home, I won't eat it! I frequently snack on carrots or store bought edamame. I eat...
OH MY GOODNESSSSS! Your babies are adorable! I'm looking forward to seeing them on my dash! As for tips... it's hard -really hard- to make time to get to a gym, so I just don't even kid myself by getting a membership. I stopped buying junkfood... if it's not at home, I won't eat it! I frequently snack on carrots or store bought edamame. I eat...
Teething, Party of 2
Holy toofers batman! Both boy have been unusually fussy the last few days, so I felt around their gums. Lucas’ bottom teeth are finally cutting through, and Logan’s top teeth are as well! I guess he was determined not to let his brother catch up with him. Sibling rivalry at its finest. At least now I know why they have been acting possessed. Hopefully they return to their regularly...
Of course I jinxed myself with yesterdays post and am now sitting here feeling like crap.
My First Truthful Tuesday, one day late
so i have tried many times over the last few months to figure out how i wanted to talk about my struggles with post partum depression. i would think of a million things i wanted to say as i went about my day, but as soon as i sat down at the computer i would draw a blank. i guess im just going to start in the middle, and i hope that it can help somebody out there in tumblr-land feel like they...